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#50by50ish #50 – Lose weight – Part 8, off-scale success

The PolyBlog
December 11 2018

One of the first things you see when looking at weight loss stories or advice/tips/tricks from professionals is that it isn’t “all about the number”. People commenting on my posts on FB have echoed that advice too — reminding me to also look for success indicators that are not tied to my weight scale. What some experts call “off-the-scale” or “off-scale” success. These “other” indicators become not only philosophically important, moving you from a technical definition of obesity tied to your weight or Body Mass Index to a more functional definition of fitness, but also psychologically crucial if you bust your ass between weigh-ins and yet the needle doesn’t move because you’ve hit a plateau.

And with my typical analytical zeal, combined with my love of all things performance measurement related at work, I adapted my approach to take into account these “other factors”. I also used my research time to look at various milestones to give me way stations along the journey, markers to tell me I’ve achieved some arbitrary measure of success, something other than the obvious 157 little milestones for each pound lost or one big milestone at the end.

So with a bit of extra zeal, here are the first three sets of indicators for my journey.

A. Weight-loss milestones

While these are still “weight-based”, they are more about specific milestones. With my overall weight goal of going from 342 pounds down to 185, i.e. a drop of 157 pounds, that number is too big to be much motivation on a short-term basis. Instead, I broke it down in 10% increments…10% of 157, 20% of 157, etc. This gives me 10 clear targets between my start and finish. I have also added in 5 other weight targets, mini-objectives that fall between those 10% increments (1 each between 20 and 30%, 30% and 40%, 40% and 50%, 60% and 70%, and finally 90% and 100%) based on another more psychological total, numbers that are symbolic to me. Which means, for those doing basic math at home, I have 15 weight-related milestones to focus on.

Progress so far:

My first milestone was Level 1, the loss of 10% of my full goal. This worked out to 15.7 pounds, and would take me to 326.3. Back in Week 17, I hit below that number for the first time — 319.8 on October 10th. LEVEL ONE ACHIEVED!

Next goal: 310.6 (20%)

My next working target is 310.6, or 20% of my overall target. I’m at week 26 this week and the last 8-9 weeks have been frustrating on this front as I have hit a plateau, which goes hand-in-hand with finding it hard to regain my original commitment and momentum to be eating the way I’m supposed to be each day.

B. Body measurements

One type of indicator that most weight loss programs use to track non-scale success is measurement of various parts of the body. The premise is simply that you may be still making progress, but muscle is denser than fat, and you might be getting “leaner” without getting “lighter”, or you might be moving/shifting weight around on your body. If the goal is to be fit, not simply “lighter”, those shifts and changes may indicate forms of progress that your simple weight scale won’t pick up. It’s also one of the reasons why so many people hate BMI as a measurement tool — people with the same overall weight and height have the same BMI, yet they could be in two totally different sets of proportions and degrees of fitness. Scales, and the BMI, can tell you one story, but not necessarily the whole story.

Awhile ago, I had helped someone with a diet program and their program used a bunch of measurements. I was shocked by two things. First and foremost, that the numbers were not as precise as I expected. Measuring my own neck, for instance, can give me widely different numbers (shifting as much as 5%) just by slightly altering the angle or how tight you pull the tape measure. It is, regrettably, incredibly imprecise. Secondly, I discovered that all those ads on TV where someone lost 14 inches in one week, etc. was incredibly misleading. I never really thought about them, I assumed they meant around the waist. In some cases, sure, but in other cases it was some misleading math — two inches off their chest, four inches off their waist, two inches off each leg, etc. until it added up to a “loss of 14 inches”. Really? REALLY? Hmm…not even sure that qualifies as legal, but it is certainly misleading.

Anyway, regardless, I went through a whole bunch of websites that talked about these types of measurements and came up with a list of 16 areas of my body to measure and track progress. I do the measuring, which isn’t that effective, and Jacob does the recording on a sheet of paper, every two weeks. He then takes three pictures of me in my non-stylish, least flattering gray shorts: first straight-on and then right and left profiles.

I’ve been looking really hard at the measurement data, and the only solution I can come up with the random fluctuations each week between my shifting it a slight half-inch or pulling a bit tighter or looser than last time is to average them out. Perhaps a three-measurement average. Over time, those “effects” should, I think, cancel each other out a bit. If the average goes down, it should indicate progress not controlled by vagaries of measurement. I guess. I honestly don’t know, I just know that the measurements are wonky, not static/stable. Equally, if I take the marketing approach and add everything up, it will iron out glitches in individual measurements even more i.e. if there is a “net change” overall, I’m making progress.

PartDescriptionOct 30
Nov 13Nov 27Dec 11CHANGE
NeckLargest part19 in19

19.5

Ave: 19.17

19

Ave: 19.17

—
BustAt nipple line52 in52.75

53

Ave: 52.88

53

Ave: 52.92

+.33
ChestJust under bust52 in52.5

51

Ave: 51.83

51

Ave: 51.50

-.33
Waist1/2 in above belly button53.75 in55

55

Ave: 54.58

55

Ave: 55

+.42
StomachBelly button54.5 in53.5

55

Ave: 54.33

54

Ave: 54.17

-.17
HipsBiggest part47.5 in47.5

48

Ave: 47.67

48

Ave: 47.83

+.17
Thigh, RightBiggest part27.5 in27.5

26.5

Ave: 27.17

26

Ave: 26.67

-.50
Knee, RightAbove knee20.5 in19.5

20.5

Ave: 20.17

20

Ave: 20

-.17
Calf, RightBiggest part19 in18.5

19.5

Ave: 19.00

19.5

Ave: 19.17

+.17
Thigh, LeftBiggest part27.5 in27

28

Ave: 27.50

28

Ave: 27.67

+.17
Knee, LeftAbove knee20 in20.5

22.5

Ave: 21

21

Ave: 21.33

+.33
Calf, LeftBiggest part20 in20

20

Ave: 20

20

Ave: 20

—
Upper Arm, RightBiggest part18.25 in16.5

17

Ave: 17.25

17

Ave: 16.83

-.42
Forearm, RightBiggest part13.5 in11.5

12.5

Ave: 12.50

12.5

ave: 12.17

-.33
Upper Arm, LeftBiggest part18.5 in16.5

17.5

Ave: 17.50

16.50

Ave: 16.83

-.67
Forearm, LeftBiggest part13 in11.5

13

Ave: 12.50

13

Ave: 12.5

—

Progress so far: 1 inch

If the mathematical approach is to add up all the “inches”, I guess I’ve lost an inch overall. However, given that I don’t really know what my “goals” are for each of these areas, my real progress is that I have done the measurements four times (the Seinfeld Method for consistency of measurements, yay me!). Since I do the measurements two weeks apart, the rolling average of 3 basically means “over the course of the last four weeks” i.e. a monthly measurement, updated biweekly, which sounds about right.

But here is the completely wonky part. I know the math doesn’t make any sense to add up all the measurements, not really, just in a generic sense that if the overall totals go down, you are “smaller”. Or if one specific area is something you are targeting, sure. And while I know all that, the fact that all of it adds up to an overall loss of 1 inch, 1 measly inch, is encouraging. As I said, I plateaued a few weeks ago, so I’ll take any progress I can find. Even ones of dubious lineage.

Next goal: ?

While I’m hoping the numbers change overall, I don’t really have specific numerical goals for each part, except perhaps my pants size. I have a 30 inch inseam, and I’d like to get to the point where I could wear 30″/30″ pants. I vaguely remember being in pants at the 28/30/32″ range and I know someone I consider reasonably fit who is also 30″. I feel like 34″ would be too big, but I really don’t know. I guess I’ll fine tune this as I get close. However, in the meantime, I’ll track it. Maybe it will show movement when I’m stuck on a plateau, like now.  A friend really likes the idea of dropping a “dress size”, but since that doesn’t really work for men, the pants size is about the best I can do for now.

C. Qualitative Indicators

I mentioned above that I researched the heck out of various websites and other resources to find “other” indicators that I could use to mark progress, and as I did so, many of them were completely irrelevant to me. Some of them were lifestyle issues that I don’t have, or choices that are not part of my mindset, or involved specific types of partnerships that I don’t have or don’t want. Which left me picking and choosing from a laundry list of possible indicators to come down to some that are applicable to me. My final list is a mish-mash of some 40 items and it looks chaotic even to me. Some of them I’ve already achieved, so it’s not as bad as having 40 still out there, but I feel like they need a bit of a framework to help me understand them, let alone explain them to others. This is what I have come up with.

CategoryDescriptionTier 1Tier 2Tier 3
Initial commitment (Psychological)Start the journey and early progress
  • Commit to the journey
  • Announce goal
  • Get professional help
  • Seinfeld progress for plan
Weight measurement (Physical)Ongoing tracking
  • First weigh-in
  • First pound
  • First healthy week
  • First set of measurements
  • Overcome a plateau
  • Change of 1″ in waist
  • Change of 5″ in waist
  • Change of 10″ in waist
  • See my toes past my belly
  • See “abs” or other muscle definition
ClothingHow clothing fits
  • Wardrobe feels looser
  • Need to tighten my belt
  • Notice a difference in photos
  • Fit into “old clothes” (275 lbs)
  • Need transition clothes (240 or 205 lbs)
  • Need new wardrobe (185)
  • Fit into ~30″ pants
SocialInteractions with friends and family
  • Discuss it with Andrea and Jacob
  • Discuss it with professionals
  • Discuss it with others (other family, friends)
  • Receive compliment
  • A’s ability to hug me
  • J’s ability to hug me
ExerciseFormal exercise routine
  • First set of 5 push ups
  • First set of 5 crunches
  • First work-out on Bowflex
  • First pull-up at park
  • First yoga/cardio workout
  • First time on bicycle
  • Develop fitness test
  • First week of 3 workouts on Bowflex
  • First week of 2 yoga/cardio workouts
  • First week of 2 bicycle outings
  • Attempt fitness test
  • First week of 5 workouts
  • First week of 6 workouts
  • First week of 7 workouts
  • Passing element of fitness test
  • Passing element in each section of fitness test
  • Passing entire fitness test
Functional FitnessInformal signs of fitness
  • Take stairs from parking to 1st floor at work
  • Take stairs to 1st floor easily
  • Do something that felt awkward before
  • Tying shoes without effort
  • Kneeling without pain
  • Take stairs from parking to 2nd floor
  • Take stairs to 2nd floor easily
  • Stairs from parking to building floor
  • Stairs from 2nd to 7th
  • Stairs from 2nd to 10th

Progress so far: Multiple items

I don’t know if those six categories are the right categories exactly, but they’re good enough to get going. And, as you can see from the list, I have made some progress already:

– Commit to the journey
– Announce goal
– Get professional help
– First weigh-in
– First pound
– First set of measurements
– Discussed it with Andrea and Jacob
– Discussed it with professionals
– Discussed it with friends and family last week (family gathering)
– Have received an unsolicited compliment that someone noticed a change
– Andrea finds it “easier” to hug me now, not quite as big around as I was

Next goal: Complete Tier 1

The big hold-outs for me in Tier 1 is mainly around getting going on the fitness. I had hoped to meet with the kinesiologist soon to get some help with that, but with some scheduling issues, that won’t happen until January. In the meantime, I will get started on my own. Which requires a crapload of work in the basement to get it all arranged properly. But that’s why I took the time off, right? 🙂

And that’s a wrap for almost all of the measurements/indicators. If you know of others, I’m happy to consider them!

Next week, I’ll blog about taking ALL of the measurements, turning them on their head, and going hard-core on 18 unique ones.

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#50by50ish #50 – Lose weight – Part 7, seeking professional help

The PolyBlog
December 5 2018

Last week’s post was the scariest one for me so far, me alone with my numbers and photos. After that, I was originally going to talk about metrics and other reporting this week, but I decided to go a bit sideways and instead talk about who I’ve brought along on the journey from an external professional standpoint, the team that I’ve put in place to help me survive the journey.

For overall context, I feel that in most areas of my life, I am pretty self-sufficient on the psychological front. Most things I can either handle on my own, or I know how to figure out how to get help / who to seek help from in order to handle it. When my mother passed away, grief was kicking my ass about a year after her death. The efforts to settle her estate kind of delayed part of the impact, and then when that was done, grief came flooding in unexpectedly. At the time, I couldn’t figure out why none of my mental processes and analytical functions were working to help me figure things out, but I dismissed grief as a likely cause. I felt it must be something else because she had been gone for a year already, but I didn’t realize that grief often manifests itself as a wet blanket over top of everything, dampening things down, lowering energies so that when I asked myself if it was “grief” that was bothering me, my internal diagnostic came back as “no”. In fact, EVERYTHING I tried came back as “no”. I needed help.

So I decided to give our Employee Assistance Program at work a try. I called, told them I wanted to talk to someone about stress and depression (I was mentally run down), they asked me politely if I was suicidal or going to harm anyone else, I said no, and so they referred me to a counselor in my neighbourhood. I was offered two or three to choose from, I chose one, and they authorized three initial meetings with an option to do up to eight.

The woman I went to see is named Shirley, and she’s a retired social worker who used to work at the Ottawa Children’s Treatment Centre, now part of CHEO. She is almost the perfect choice for me…some of what I wanted to talk about included Jacob, and how I handle things with him, and she has 20+ years of dealing with kids and parents of kids with Cerebral Palsy (which is similar to what Jacob experiences). I had no need to go into the basics, she knew EXACTLY what I was talking about. She’s a social worker by training and practice, not a psychologist or psychiatrist, although she works under the supervision of an overall psychologist for the purposes of the business model. We did the first three sessions, I extended it for five more, and between us, we got me back on track. A mental tune-up, if you will.

A few years later, I wasn’t feeling quite right, so we did another three sessions as a mental tune-up. I like her, feel comfortable with her, and she’s given me some really good insights to think about over the sessions. As an aside, I had a real problem with something at work back in late January, and I was having real trouble “letting it go”. Shirley was out of the city for an extended period, so I saw a specialist in Cognitive Behavioural Therapy. Wow, *that* was an experience. It was helpful, but a way more active form of counselling, not my style at all. It was easy enough to deal with in two sessions but still.

So I don’t have trouble asking for psych help, and she’s a good resource and I’ve met with her a few times in recent weeks (I’ll come back to that later). Yet with my big plan in place as of mid-summer, I knew I needed other types of help with my weight loss, and a lot more guidance. I just don’t have much previous capacity in those areas.

On the health front, I’ve mentioned before that I really don’t like the supervising physician that I’m assigned to in my doctor’s practice. We just don’t get along well. So when I can, I choose to see the intern / resident instead. Anyway, in mid-summer, I went in, met the new intern (Dr. Ali), and said, “Okay, let’s do this. What do I need to do first before I start such a massive change?”.

First up was some blood work. And we had meant to do a stress test a couple of years ago but scheduling was a problem, I was on a waiting list, and then I somehow disappeared from their waiting list or something. It wasn’t urgent, but still, I wanted one. So we booked that. I already wrote about my experience with the first stress test (#50by50ish #36 – A stress test with a side of manscaping) and I did the bloodwork the same day.

I immediately got a call a day or two later — come see us now, Dr. Ali needed to talk to me about the bloodwork. In the blog post mentioned above, I was expecting one of several possible outcomes of the bloodwork. It might have been that I was high for something related to diabetes. Because there is diabetes in my family, and I’m carrying extra weight, they always want to test for that. But it has always comes back negative. Not even close. Alternatively, it could have been some sort of infection (my ears were giving me problems unrelated to blood pressure). Or it could have been some completely unrelated item about cholesterol or my thyroid or something else that spiked. I was mostly worried about the fact that I also have large lymph nodes and regular headaches, so I had asked them to check some protein markers.

As it turns out, it was about diabetes. My AC1 number had blown up in the last two years — I went from “not close” through “pre-diabetes” and now officially a 0.1 step into officially being diabetic.

But the diagnosis meant nothing to me. I don’t mean that I didn’t understand it, I mean that it meant nothing new. I already knew my weight was affecting me, I already knew I needed to make changes to my diet, it wasn’t at a level to require insulin, and so nothing really changed. I was in the same situation before the diagnosis as after, more or less. That seems incredibly weird to me, but it really didn’t change anything in my approach. Except in a round-about way, it did. Since I am officially diabetic, and a new diabetic at that, four things happened at once.

First, I get to go on a higher-priority list for all follow-up. I’m no longer on the routine “let’s check this out” list, I’m on the “do this reasonably soon” list. Works for me. I’m not on the “TEST HIM NOW” list, but I get relatively quick referrals.

Second, my diagnosis automatically triggers offers of additional supports through a diabetes clinic. I get a nurse (Rosie) who works in their social worker unit (although most of what she does is talk to me about foot care, not a small issue for diabetics), a registered dietician (Genevieve) to go through my diet with me and answer questions, and at my request, access to a kinesiologist (Anna) to help me figure out some of my plans for exercise.

I’ve already had my first big session with the nurse, Rosie, and as I said, it was all about my feet. No real concerns, my circulation shows fine for now.

The time with the dietician was more instructive. I had already gone through a bunch of online materials two weeks earlier and changed my diet, so when I met with her, almost all of it was her answering my questions, I already had covered the basics.The biggest challenge for me is a form of binge-eating, not the classic view of binge-eating of wolfing down a whole gallon of Rocky Road ice cream. My problem? Eating large amounts at irregular intervals. So my primary changes are:

  1. Eating breakfast…I am not a morning person, I’m a night owl. So when I get up in the morning, I am frequently out the door ten minutes after getting dressed, and that includes a bathroom stop. When I say that I “skipped breakfast”, I mean that I would only have had something to eat before 10:30 a.m. on average about 1-2 days per month. Very rarely. Now I make sure I have SOMETHING decent every day.
  2. Drink more…I suck at consuming water during the day, mostly because I have very bad experiences with water coolers. Almost every time I’ve tried to up my game to drink more water each day, and start using the coolers, I get sick almost immediately. A cold, the flu, something. I’m also terrible at plain water. I thought that was the only option, as I don’t like adding lemon or cucumber thingies, but the dietician approved a couple of flavourings that I showed her that are just fine. I’m still not doing great on this, too many days where I have gone most of the day with nothing other than the morning yogourt drink or something, so definitely a work in progress.
  3. Sugary drinks…This one was bothering me, not because I didn’t know I should dump them, but more because I didn’t know what would be left as a replacement. As I said, I don’t like plain water normally, too raw on my throat, etc., and if I eliminated soda, I was screwed. I knew that you’re not supposed to have too much milk, I don’t like tea or coffee, I don’t drink alcohol, and honestly, there aren’t a lot of other choices available that I even like. I could dump the regular drinks and switch to diet, and while it would be better to have none of them, the dietician showed me that in limited quantities, the diet sodas were viable options. Plus, as I noted above, the flavoured water was okay as my main “go to” choice.
  4. Snacks…Most people think of the change for snacks as switching to healthy ones, and that was part of it, but more important for me was simply HAVING a snack. I am really terrible at this. This has actually been a source of tension at times with Andrea…we would be doing something, and she would go 3 hours without at least a snack and be ready to pass out; meanwhile, I had skipped breakfast, had no snack, drank nothing, and I was still raring to go. Probably cranky, but still okay. And at work, the scenario was not regular but not uncommon for me to get to work in the morning without having anything except a yogourt drink on the way, sometimes not even that, no snack, working away, and the next thing I know it is 3:30 p.m. and I’m feeling peckish, but suddenly realizing the last thing I ate was almost 20 hours earlier for supper. Yes, I know how stupid that sounds. But I wasn’t dying of hunger or anything, in fact, sometimes I only noticed because of the time, not hunger. And yes, the dietician explained what my body was doing during that time to compensate, almost none of it good. I guess I just felt that my extra fat reserves were at least good for something.

As noted above, the dietician helped fine-tune what I had already figured out. Most of my new plan was one she approved of and thought was looking great. She wondered if I had enough variety to keep it interesting during the day, so I’ve tried to expand a few things her and there. And she was able to answer certain “this or that” type questions as to which was better.

I confess, I thought she was going to suggest a lot more changes, that I didn’t have it quite right, and thus give me a “diabetes diet” to follow. But from the first health appointment to the meeting with her, I was already almost six weeks in, so I had already made most of my changes. And she pointed out, there is no such thing as a “diabetes diet”, it is just healthy eating that everyone should do. Which I guess is true, but I felt like the diabetes diagnosis DID help with my diet choices — I went from having an almost infinite variety of diets and diet advice out there to wade through, and suddenly had it all more narrowly focused on diabetic-friendly advice. 

I haven’t met with the kinesiologist, Anna, yet, as I have had to move the scheduled appointments around a bit.

The third thing that changed was that it gave the doctor some ideas for changes to my medicines. For example, I’m on blood pressure meds and there are some that work better for diabetics, so she wants to transition me. As well, another med helps the body handle insulin usage so I’m trying to work that into my regime without shortcircuiting what I’m already doing/taking.

Oddly enough, when the doctor gave me the diagnosis regarding the diabetes, she said almost in passing, as part of her encouragement, that “even” losing 20 pounds could be helpful. And I laughed. I actually laughed. I didn’t mean to be rude, but she was asking me to try to help her help me by my losing 20 pounds, rather than the reality that I’m planning to lose 157 pounds and she’s along for the ride. I might even describe my reaction as almost scoffing at her. When I went back later for a follow-up and told her that I already passed the first 25 pound mark, I think she was almost shocked. Very few patients do that, I know. But the diabetes diagnosis wasn’t a motivational factor for me, it was more an afterthought for what I’m already doing.

The fourth and final part goes back to my mental health mentioned above. I am doing okay, but I am confronting a big-ass dragon in a cave, I am saying openly that it is tough, I’m feeling scared AF on certain posts, and it occurred to me. — shouldn’t I have another professional in the mix? Not as part of the Employee Assistance Program, I felt that was more for acute issues than planned / regular mental health care, but just for my own mental well-being?

So I made some appointments with Shirley again, the social worker who helped me work through the grief and with mental tune-ups previously.

Which means, I have a decent team of professionals:

  • Dr. Ali, the overall doctor who will be around for most of the journey;
  • Rosie, the nurse, to help me monitor foot care issues and potential circulatory challenges;
  • Genevieve, the dietician on demand, to help me modify my diet regime as I go;
  • Anna, the kinesiologist. to help me figure out some decent exercise options (some people prefer a personal trainer, and I may do that at some point, just not what I need right now, which is more planning advice); and;
  • Shirley, my therapist/counselor/social worker, to help me through the mental anguish and to help me chase down random squirrels.

Shirley cautioned me with last week’s post, asking me if I was sure that such a drastic step was possible or needed. I understood her concern, and I’m glad she raised it. But I was sure. And I feel I was right. The relief I have felt in the last few days of having that over and done with, at least for the first time ever, was almost a mental cleanse. I’m more focused, I’m more attuned to some of my issues, I’m more patient with my progress. Well, generally. I’m down about my current plateau.

I had another session with Shirley today, heavily focused on the upcoming six weeks. My previous project at work was finishing, and I didn’t have a new one starting right away, so I took advantage of the lull to take six weeks leave from work just to focus on me. Not great for the paycheque, true, but I am hopeful it will help me through the time and maybe kickstart some of my exercise options too.

Yet I still have a somewhat tightly-bound set of issues to deal with, and we’re coming up on a stressful time of year where two of my frequent coping tools — drink and food — are not available to me. It is not as bad as an alcoholic having to get through a bunch of social occasions where everyone is drinking, but there are some similarities in there for me. I am worried that I won’t be able to maintain my commitment and resolve, or that I’ll feel self-conscious with every bite, since I’ve been more open about my weight loss and now everyone knows.

In the meantime, I have Dr. Ali, Rosie, Genevieve, Anna, and Shirley to back me up. I may need more professionals in the mix before the journey is over, but for now, this is my external medical team — five women advising me on how to save my life.

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#50by50ish #40 – Plan my retirement – b. Take a course

The PolyBlog
November 29 2018

Since I work in the public service, I have a pretty good pension. Gold-plated, if you ask some people, at least in comparison to what the average private sector person can get from their employer. Indexed for inflation, guaranteed for life, forced savings with matching input from the employer, and for those who joined the public service before 2014, people often treat it like the classic private pensions that come with a magic number of 85 (and it used to be explained that way).

Basically pensions that use a magic number work as an addition of two things — your age + your years of service. If that number is 85 or above, you can take your pension with no penalty. More recently, there is often a small catch…sometimes you have to be at least a certain age, like 55 years old. In a perfect world, that would mean you would start working for an organization when you were 25, work for 30 years, and at the age of 55 you would have 55 years of age + 30 years of service = magic 85. Most people out there who know about pensions have heard of magic numbers, so why is there a course?

There’s a course for several reasons. First and foremost, the government manages the pension and they have an obligation to explain it to members i.e., what our mandatory pension gives us. To do this, the powers that be at Public Services and Procurement Canada have put together a detailed generic presentation deck on our public service pension plan. They share it with private contractors who are trained in the content, and thus there are financial planners across the country who can give the same presentation with the same information to the federal public service employees who work across Canada.

Second, there is WAY more to the pension plan than simply that number. Bells and whistles and options, oh my! Life insurance, death benefits, lump sum payments, what happens if you are less than 55 or under 25 or 30 years of service, what happens if you started working after 2014, what happens if you are with them less than 2 years, etc. It’s complex and detailed.

Third, the magic number formulas are the way pensions used to work and lots of other ones do, but it’s now more accurate to think of it as a combination of “age, service”, not “age + service”. Very few people are 25 when they start, work 30 years exactly, and hit 55 with the old style magic number of 85. So then the second clause kicks in, which makes the magic number idea almost meaningless now.

Under the pension, the focus instead is on what combination of age and pensionable service do you need to get an immediate annuity (monthly benefits with no reductions), with three scenarios:

  • Retirement for disability –> any age and at least 2 years of service;
  • Regular retirement –> Over 60 and at least 2 years of service; or,
  • Regular retirement –> Over 55 and at least 30 years of service.

If you were in the second category, you’re magic number could be as low as 62. And yet you would qualify. The magic number doesn’t really apply anymore to that category and never did to the first.

I’m in the third category, which is where the magic number used to apply. However, with the new rules, it doesn’t. When I am 55, I’ll only be at 28 years of service or so, i.e. I don’t meet the second criteria, so while I *could* retire at 55, my pension would be hit by a reduction formula i.e. a penalty. If I wait until 57/58, I’ll meet both criteria –> over 55 AND at least 30 years of service. (And, FYI, the so-called old “magic number” would be 87/88, and meaningless).

(Someone on Reddit noted that I had skipped explaining the change from using magic number formulas in my first draft of this post, and it was confusing. Note that there are a couple of presenters out there modify the magic number slightly to still use it as they find it a simpler transition for some people to understand. You *can* keep the magic number idea in your head, if you prefer, if you think of there being a cap on age points as up to 55 points and a cap on years of service as up to 30 points. The disability option or over 60 options remain exceptions, and you can still add up to 85, but I agree with the Reddit people — keeping the magic formula explanation is too misleading, so hopefully the change shows more readily above now — as noted, the short version is that it has changed how the two variables are used i.e. it is “age and service” not “age plus service”.)

Fourth, there’s demand. I know of at least four different courses available. One is simply online, and as far as I can tell, just shares the basic deck with an audio track. There is also a half-day course that seems to go through the basic deck, except in person. A third course is a one-day course that goes a bit more in-depth, and then there’s the one I took — three days with each day broken into two half-day topics per day. In Ottawa, it is offered by the Retirement Planning Institute (RPI).

Lots of people have taken the courses before, and most who have taken the short ones thought they were “okay” while just about everyone raves about the three-day course. Pop wisdom says to take it once when you’re early in your career and once closer to the end of your career. Some would even go so far as to say that you should take it every 10 years as a refresher, but that seems like overkill to me. Maybe the half-day ones are somewhere in the middle, but I agree with taking it early and late in your career. There are definitely aspects that apply to different stages of your career and I wish I had realized certain aspects earlier (around RRSPs, for example). 

But the fifth reason came up in the intro to the first session. In short, our pension is so different from most other people’s pension plans that our financial situation overall DOES NOT look like anyone else’s. Our pension plan rates, investments, risk profile, all of it looks very different from the average consumer out there, so why would we take a “general” pension course rather than one that focuses on OUR pension and OUR situation? I’ll come back to that later. I screwed something up awhile back in my financial planning, and this course would have allowed me to correct it. Not huge, but not nothing either. 

I mentioned in an earlier post (#50by50ish #50 – Lose weight – Part 5, what changed?) that the course I took was broken down into six elements over three days:

  1. General overview of finances and retirement
  2. Legal aspects of retirement and aging
  3. Health and retirement
  4. Financial planning: Part 1
  5. Financial planning: Part 2
  6. Psychology and retirement

1. General Overview of Finances and Retirement

The first morning session is dedicated to the official deck prepared by the government. I found myself a bit surprised with it — it is remarkably good. No bureaucratese, no “on the one hand” waffling, it is relatively simple and direct. The deck walks you through the pension and benefits website, supplementary death benefit, leave without pay, actual retirement benefits (including indexing and bridge benefits), service buybacks, survivor benefits, group insurance benefits, and other services and information. 

It is long and detailed, and incredibly useful. That session alone is worth the price of admission, and those who do the half-day elsewhere with just that deck are well-served, although I suspect it is better handled in person than in a recorded online version.

For me, I would say I liked four of the elements a lot from this session:

a. How the contribution rates are coordinated with CPP/QPP…Under CPP rules, you have to contribute to CPP. Everyone does, public servant or not. And when you turn 65, you’re going to get your CPP. So that is already in place. The maximum insurable salary / earnings under CPP for 2018 is set at $55,900. So your CPP contribution for the first $55,900 is already set … you are paying approximately 2.3% of that amount for CPP already. And they don’t want to “double tax” you, so for the first $55,900 of your salary, they charge you only an additional 9.83%. Add those two together, and you get 12.13%. So you pay 12.13% on $55,900 with some of the money going to CPP and some going to your public service pension. If you earn more than $55,900, you pay 12.13% on the rest.

In summary, the first $55,900 is harmonized so it comes out to 12.13% to two sources, anything above $55,900 is also at 12.13% but that all goes to the pension plan. Which means, drum roll please, you pay the same percentage all the way through, but it is coordinated with what you pay to CPP. I never knew how that worked before, and page 4 of their deck lays it out pretty well…I must confess however that the speaker ad-libbed a bit at this point and it was very helpful to have him help us “see it”. Hence why I think the in-person course is likely a bit better.

b. What you get for retirement…depending on your circumstances, it can be a monthly pension or a lump sum. Lump sums have a bunch of rules about tax limits, transfers to RRSPs or purchasing life annuities, for instance, but there is a nice breakdown of the various options (pp. 10-13). It doesn’t really apply to me since I’ll be doing the monthly pension, but it was good to know.

c. Explanations of the bridge benefit…pp. 26-28 cover your options related to a bridge benefit, i.e. a “top up” to my pension from, in my case, age 58 to age 65 to take into account that I may not take my CPP until age 65. I knew almost nothing about this and the short overview was extremely helpful. There are a bunch of options to work out, basically variables in terms of how long from my age of retirement to age of 65, and I’ll need way more info from a financial planner to work that out, but it was still eye-opening for how it worked.

d. Service buyback options…pp. 29-30 give you the bare minimum of information about service buybacks but the presenter went through it pretty well verbally.

In my case, I worked as a co-op student back in ’93 for eight months. They deducted pension stuff from me at the time, but when my service ended, they just paid it out i.e. paid it back to me. However, that is service that I can “claim” towards my 30 years, and all I have to do is pay what would have been contributed to the pension if I had paid into the service for those extra 8 months (the fact that I got paid back at the time means it is now “eligible” to be reclaimed as opposed to already being in my pension).

Here’s the first kicker, which I already knew. You buy back at your PRESENT rate of pay. In other words, I have to make my contributions of 12% (as calculated above) for 8 months of salary at my current salary, not what I was making as a co-op student. Well, pooh. I wish I knew back then not to take it but just to leave it there. I have another six months in ’96 that was a probationary period, and I can reclaim that too. So I can buy back up to 14 months of service by making just over a year’s worth of extra pension contributions.

The obvious lesson learned, which is not a surprise, is that if you have any service eligible, you want to buy it back as soon in your career as possible because it will be cheaper. If you can buy back a year of service at a current salary of $50000, you’ll pay approximately $6000 to do it ($50K x 12.13%). If you wait and do it later when you’ve got promoted and earning $100K, you’ll pay $12K. Since most people’s salaries continue to increase as a public servant through inflation and promotions, the sooner the better. I didn’t do that and because I didn’t do this great 3-day course earlier in my career, I never thought about it until recently when I’m nearing the top of my lifetime salary rates.

So then we come to the second kicker – figuring out if the buyback is worth it. I certainly wanted to know how to calculate if it was worth it for me to do in my specific situation. I had already asked the official pension people for an estimate of the current cost of all my buyback options rolled together into one lump sum, and they gave me my total. About $17K. Wow. That’s a LOT of money.

As the guy was presenting, he must have read my mind and said essentially, “Some of you may be wondering if you should buy back or not. And as a professional financial planner, I can tell you that it all depends on your situation, you have to weigh the variables and other costs, and decide in the end that the answer is yes.” In 20+ years of advising public servants, he said there were only two situations where it wasn’t in the client’s interest, and both times they were very close to retirement and the purchase was going to mess up other investments.

I was a bit skeptical, I admit, but it was like he was still reading my mind. “If you’re skeptical about that, here’s the real question you’re asking. Should I invest in a gold-plated protected pension, guaranteed for life, and indexed for inflation every year? Yes, as much as you can.” A pretty clear picture. Of course, it depends on where that $17K is sitting right now and if you have it available, but generally, yes. It is also heavily related to something else for me, and I’ll cover that in the hard core financial section below.

The third kicker for me was a small nuance of how you pay that money to the government / pension plan. I already knew there was an option to just pay it all at once, and just write them a cheque. But I don’t have $17K sitting in a bank account screaming “use me, use me for pensions”. I also knew that a second option was to have them estimate when my retirement date is and pro-rate it over my paycheques until I retire. Not a bad option. But the real kicker I didn’t know was that I can transfer FROM MY EXISTING RRSP to the pension plan. I can take $17K of investments I ALREADY HAVE and just MOVE the money over? Hot damn. Sign me up and call me ready for retirement 14 months earlier. Now THAT’S exciting!

2. Legal aspects of retirement and aging

The first afternoon was a substitute presenter, a lawyer who had done the course before, and he was there to talk about the legal aspects of retirement. Now, the course is being taught in the NCR, and some people live in Ottawa and some people live in Quebec. And some people have property in both, or have lived in one and now live in the other. Some married, some not. Some divorced and remarried, some single. So there was a lot of interest in WHAT IF scenarios. 

There are a few basic things they were trying to accomplish with the session. It was a lot of “if this, then that” but the overall message was, “if you want our life to be difficult, do whatever you want; if you want to make certain things simple, here’s what you can do.”

For example, have a will, or more accurately, DON’T DIE WITHOUT ONE. It is just way more complicated for everyone involved if you die without a will. Seems obvious, but I confess that Andrea and I didn’t do our wills when we were younger, waiting instead until Jacob was born. We were living together and had even bought a home together, yet hadn’t executed full wills. Not terrible since we were common law in Ontario, but potentially disastrous if we were in Quebec. We have them now, of course, and so we weren’t really interested in that part. We understand the basics, I’ve done the executor duties for my dad and mom, I’m good to go for the most part. But there was a young couple in the course who were in our old shoes, didn’t have wills, and were suddenly seeing the complexity of their situation in being common-law with no will and living in Quebec.

Second, they wanted us to understand that if you’re in Quebec, and you’re not married, your support and survivorship rights are limited. When he started explaining it, the back of my neck started to itch. It didn’t sound right to me, because I thought a bunch of stuff had changed. See, I’m a weirdo pants when it comes to law stuff. I read things most people glaze over when they see. So a few years ago, when the Quebec Court of Appeal granted spousal support to the wife of the Cirque du Soleil owner even though they weren’t legally married, the tabloids went nuts for the amounts of money involved, the newspapers talked about a legal milestone, and legal papers talked about how this meant another province now recognized common law support rights. And I read the last two sources (newspapers and legal papers) and thought “Okay, so Quebec is mostly like everyone else now for common law marriages”. Interesting. A throw-back interest to my law school days.

Except the lawyer was saying that what I thought was now the law in Quebec was not actually the reality. 

This guy was reading my mind too because he said, “Now you may have thought that changed when the Quebec Court of Appeal did blah blah blah…” and I was like, “Yes! Exactly!”. Except I had missed something. The Supreme Court of Canada overturned it. I totally missed that happening, partly because I didn’t read the tabloids, the newspapers treated it as “Okay, nobody gets rich, no story”, and the legal papers basically said, “Okay, same as it always was, nothing to see here.” They talked about the decision / outcome of who won, but not the legal implications or issues at stake, at least not in the same level of coverage. It wasn’t revolutionary, it was “same old, same old”. But it is now back to the the way it used to be, and common law spouses can get seriously SCREWED.

Unfortunately, the session did not have a clear presentation that he was following. As I said, the lawyer was substituting for the guy who was supposed to do it, and while he was certainly knowledgeable, it was more like 3 hours of him saying, “Here’s an issue…if you live in Ontario and you’re married, it works this way. If you’re in Quebec and married, like this. If you’re in Ontario and COMMON LAW, then this; Quebec, this. If you’re divorced on a Thursday while wearing a hat shaped like a Beaver…”. It was hard to follow a lot of the twists and turns, and 80% of it didn’t apply to Andrea and I. Of the remaining 20%, we had most of it already covered.

I didn’t feel I got a lot out of the session other than “have a will” (some interesting elements of why you shouldn’t do a holographic will, which was GOOD to know, as I have considered using a kit and/or redrafting the one we have from the lawyer that I’d like to tweak every so slightly and if I do, I should really use the full lawyer for it and just pay the freight), don’t own properties in multiple provinces if you want your life to be simple, don’t get divorced, and if you’re together in Quebec, life is a LOT easier legally if you’re actually formally married. Again, you can have a simple life, or you can have a complicated one, particularly if you don’t do things the right way but want something different from the default.

3. Health and retirement 

In a separate blog about my health and weight loss, I blogged about the health session (#50by50ish #50 – Lose weight – Part 5, what changed?) and that I was pretty disappointed with it. It had a knock-on effect of inspiring some other thoughts about my health, but it wasn’t a great session. I was expecting a tightly focused presentation about health in retirement and what to expect, and instead it was a general “health” presentation that was good for anyone at any stage of their life. I liked the presenter, a doctor in the military, but the main thrust of the presentation was “what will limit how long you live?”.

Based on the Ontario Health Study, she listed the five biggest factors: 

  1. Exercise — How active are you?
  2. Tobacco — Do you use any?
  3. Diet — What do you eat?
  4. Alcohol — How much do you drink?
  5. Stress — How to you choose to react to life?

Nothing revolutionary in there. It did feed into a larger narrative I have been working on about “am I saving for retirement in terms of (x) investments?” such as health investments, planning investments, financial investments, social investments, etc. But overall, I thought it was “meh”. She did close out with some references to the importance of powers of attorney for personal care, as had the lawyer, but I really would have expected that one of the two of them would have spent a fair amount of time on this. After all, weren’t we talking about health in retirement or legal issues in retirement, when those are likely to be needed at some point?

They didn’t ignore them, but they didn’t spend any real time dedicated to them either. I also confess that I had thought that this session also included the psychology component, and while there were a few references, I was really disappointed it was missing. It wasn’t until the start of the third afternoon that I realized there was a whole session on psychology and so I was a little too harsh perhaps.

Yet I don’t want to imply it was useless. There were some interesting bits. For example:

  • She referenced Dr. Mike Evans’ “23 and a half hours” video on YouTube that went viral a few years ago, and his site, www.reframehealthlab.com. 
  • I’ve often thought of retiring to a “country location” or at least something like a cottage, and so this session actually prompted Andrea and I to talk about it a bit more too. I read Big Box Reuse by Julia Christensen (BR00115) a year or so ago, and one of the examples in it was about health care in a retirement area of cottages in Michigan (I think). One element the doctor mentioned was that rural healthcare has a huge impact on your life expectancy — yes, you’re not experiencing the stress of city life, but you may also experience an hour-long wait for emergency care. If you dial 9-1-1, who in that area is responsible for responding? Not likely a huge issue for our likely options, but an interesting element. 
  • She gave some links on the benefits and steps to becoming an e-patient with a copy of your own medical record, as well as lists and checklists for all your health planning needs.

At the end of the presentation, there was a “call to action” component, and I don’t think it really resonated with anyone. She had a list of 35 things that people “could” commit to, such as being an organ donor, developing an “attitude of gratitude”, or doing a cancer screening, and the range of things was just too great. I think if she had grouped them to say, “Let’s do ONE thing from column A, ONE thing from column B, etc.” to get us to commit to three things, she might have had a good ending. Instead, it just sort of fizzled out.

4 and 5. Financial Planning Part 1 and 2

The afternoon of the second day and the morning of the third day were more elaborate presentations on what was covered in the upfront overview / introduction on the first morning. Truth be told, this is the main reason people take the course — the real financial stuff. The rest is “add on”.

I loved the session from the beginning, including the opening question. I’m paraphrasing, but essentially, “If you were taking a trip which would last two to three weeks, how much research and planning would you do?” and then the second question, “If your retirement lasts 25-30 years, how much time have you spent planning for it?”.

Such a simple question, but it contributed to my overall thoughts on retirement planning. Honestly? We’ve done the basics for financial, but I’ve never really spent much time planning the rest of retirement. From my other posts, that planning includes health in particular, but I’m also wondering about the psychology side. So I’m going to spend a bit of time on it in the next six months. Picturing what retirement might look like for me.

After the quick intro, we got to the second thing that I learned I had already screwed up. There is a pie-chart showing sources of seniors income, and notes that for most, the breakdown is:

  • 28% pensions;
  • 21% OAS;
  • 18% CPP;
  • 13% ongoing employment;
  • 12% investment; and,
  • 8% other.

It’s a typical pie chart for the “average Canadian retiree”. And most banks will show you something similar when you talk to them. Except public servants are not the typical retirees. Our pension is great, guaranteed for life, and indexed. It drastically changes our risk profile and our likely sources. 

So what did I screw up? My risk profile for my RRSPs. Based on the “typical sources”, I rated myself as moderate for risk, somewhat conservative, and I did my RRSP investments accordingly. Except I have this amazing pension that has almost zero risk, which means if I want an overall balance of moderate, the RRSP investments are less important, and could have been done as high risk for that small portion. I never thought about it when we met with the bank, and they didn’t say anything about us having a different overall risk profile than most Canadians. They don’t know our pensions. However, even when we saw a financial planner a few years ago, he didn’t flag it for our investment choices either. Interesting. Not a huge issue, but I should have done it differently years ago.

The next part of the financials was a lot of extra info and learning about CPP and OAS, as normally they are the next two biggest resources. But most of it was flagging different scenarios and variables around “when do you take your CPP?”, highly relevant assuming in my case that I go at age 58. Do I take it at age 60 or 65? What does that look like? What impact does that have on bridging? Throw in survivor benefits, drop out years, spousal benefits, disability benefits, and clawbacks, and it’s a complicated set of questions. The course isn’t designed to answer the questions so much as getting you to know which questions tend to apply to you. On a cynical side, one might say they are advertising “come see us and we’ll go through in detail” as the presenters are registered financial planners, but to me, that’s just part of the industry, as they do the presentations in part to drum up business. But the presentation was still rock-solid.

The next source is ongoing employment, and listening to them talk about it, I developed less and less interest in continuing paid employment after retirement. I had always assumed that I might do some consulting work, but I’m not as sold on that option. Combining work income with retirement income might raise me up enough in the tax rates to wipe out some of the benefits of the retirement income in the first place. It certainly risks messing up the tax benefits of RRSPs.

The second day was devoted to taxes and various tax shelters (RRSP, Registered Life Annuities, Registered Retirement Income Funds, and Tax Free Savings Account). I confess that my knowledge on the intricacies beyond basic RRSPs is a bit limited. Even to the point of having thought “we have a TFSA” because Andrea has one, as opposed to us both being able or needing to have one. I am not even sure that I have ever really though in detail about the interactions between RRSPs and the tax system over the whole life of the investment — for me, it was always about “invest now, get the tax break now” rather than “is my marginal tax rate lower or higher than what it will be later?”. The presentation went through TFSAs vs. RRSPs in detail and was really well done. I even liked the overview of “what happens to your RRSPs at age 71” (i.e. what you convert them to). And last but not least, there were some good tips on RESPs that we need to follow up on, just to make sure we’re maximizing the usage for Jacob’s future.

After the tax shelters, the presentation moved on to more traditional investments and asset classes, namely guaranteed investments, fixed-income (bonds) and equity (stocks). This is where the risk profile came back in too…obviously, with a secure pension as the main asset, the rest of our allocation can look quite different from the typical retiree. 

And then the course got REALLY hard-core. Pension-splitting. Age credit clawbacks. OAS recovery taxes. RRSP withdrawal before age 65. The tax implications of all of it. Cash wedge strategies. 

If I thought the opening day session was worth the price of admission, this was that on steroids. It is the REAL retirement planning, and there were a LOT of great questions in there to think about. Sure, some of them didn’t apply, but a lot of them did. Things we had never even thought about. And, as I said, I have my buyback strategy and RRSP profile wrong considering that I’m a public servant. Things I wish I knew back when I was a new inductee, not someone within sight of his potential retirement date.

6. Psychology and retirement

As I mentioned above, there was some psych components in the health section, and I thought that was “it”. I had lost track of the fact that there was a whole afternoon on the topic and I was STOKED at lunch to come back and talk about it. But the session was disappointing. Not terrible, just not up to my expectations.

Don’t get me wrong, it started fine. She worked through asking questions about what “work” means to us, and what we give up in order to do it (things like time, freedom, health). But retirement represents a huge level of change for most people and is even rated higher than pregnancy for the degree of social adjustment required. Then she walked successively through personal identity, lifestyle and relationships. All key areas that are going to be impacted by retirement, and thus “risk” factors for you if they don’t go well. She was fun and engaging as a presenter, but she just didn’t have a frame for explaining things that well in my view. 

What I really wanted was a deep dive on some of those issues, and I’ll blog about it in the future a bit, most likely geared towards personality types. If you use the matrix of introverts/extroverts and analytical/intuitive of Insights Discovery (if you’re in government, you’ve seen their work — it’s the basis for the four-colour lego blocks sitting on everyone’s desk), then analytical introverts are “blue”, analytical extroverts are “red”, intuitive introverts are “green” and intuitive extroverts are “yellow”. The colour isn’t that relevant other than to help you identify broad personality traits and remember them.

Now, if I took those four types and applied them to sense of personal identity, then the analytical types (blues and reds) are likely to be the most affected by retirement in terms of their sense of “who they are”. The reds are the cliché for big bosses who run companies or teams, and then retire and try to run their household. They’re used to being in charge, and they’re going to delegate tasks to family members and run a tight ship at home. Only to be told to ship out instead. If blues and reds don’t have anything to replace it with — a volunteering role, a new project to lead — they can often feel lost. Greens and yellows identify more with people, so the loss of their “work title” won’t affect them (leaving the people will, but that’s the opposite of the blues and reds). 

The best example though is that a lot of athletes are strong reds. And when they are finished their athletic careers, they often have no idea who they are. They identified as a hockey player, a football player, a skier, and now, they’re not. So lots of athletes talk openly how they flounder for a long time adjusting to that change. It was “who” they were, and when they can’t do it anymore, they lose themselves. 

There was almost none of this in the presentation. More like “it might be an issue for you”. Well, there’s an easy way to tell. If you get people to think about their personality profiles and decide if they are blues and reds, then you know that for them there is a REALLY HIGH chance that it WILL be an issue. Which means THOSE people need to think about mitigation strategies to offset the risk in retirement. If they want retirement to go well, they need to know how to handle that loss of identity. 

By contrast, the intuitive / emotional greens and yellows are going to be worried about saying goodbye to everyone. They’re losing close friends, people who seem like family. One colleague retired, and because she didn’t want to say goodbye, she comes back for luncheons with the group about once a month (a regularly scheduled thing). She is a solid green (an intuitive introvert), and it is really important for her. I think it is part of what made her stay working past her retirement date — she would miss the people. Other people may choose to handle it by ensuring they have “replacements” at the ready — volunteer groups, a new social circle, joining a seniors group, something to provide the now-missing social interactions. 

For me, I will indeed miss certain people, but I will also lose a lot of social interaction during the day. If I went with zero social interactions at home, that would be a risk to my happiness (I need some, but not as much as most). However, the loss of “identity” could be quite large for me. I’ve got ways to mitigate it, but easier to handle if you plan in advance rather than after the fact.

As I said, I was excited for the session and perhaps my expectations were too high. Five minutes in and I thought I could present a better frame than what I was seeing. Something that would tell people, “No THIS part is about YOU” and “this part maybe less so”. I’ve done a bunch of reading since then on some websites and books, and I think I’m going to blog about it in the future. Some really interesting stuff.

That’s a wrap

And that was it. The course was over.

The training was great, well worth the cost (even though work was paying for it), and I really liked the fact that they let you bring your spouse for free. Private sector, public sector, stay at home, whatever, they can come too. Andrea and I did the course together, and it led to some interesting side-conversations about various pieces. Given that I’m 8 years older than Andrea and will hit my retirement date about 7 years before her, it also means that some of what I’m looking for is a plan of “what I’m going to do while waiting for her to retire”.

For the first two months? I’m hoping to simply nap and read. 🙂

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#50by50ish #40 – Plan my retirement – a. Short intro

The PolyBlog
November 26 2018

Back when I was looking at things to do before I was 50, there were a few items that looked rather, well, boring. Tick box items that were more “being a good little human and taking control of my life” rather than anything worthy of a 50 things list. And one of those items was something like “blah blah blah plan my retirement blah blah blah”.

To be honest, I didn’t know what it exactly meant, or would mean, when I put it on my list, and I thought it might be one of the items that I did during the year but wouldn’t include as an actual numbered item in the end. Just a to do list thing, nothing “list-worthy”. 

And then a few funny things happened. I had a conversation with my brother about his so-called retirement. He’s doing a bunch of contract work and really enjoying the freedom of choosing the contracts he’s interested in and passing on those he isn’t, as well as doing a lot of work from home rather than in an office every day. Huh. That sounded appealing, although not necessarily the types of projects he’s doing, mainly as I have other interests, and I showed enough interest that he was asking what my plans were for retiring — going early? Anytime soon? Forming our own company? No, I’m not planning on going early, so that’s not an option, but it did get me to doing more thinking about what I *do* want to do after I formally retire.

A little while later, a coworker retired. She was on pre-retirement anyway, and basically just got fed up with the day-to-day crap that often weighs us down in any job and so she put in her papers and left. And I was highly envious. Not quite to the level of jealousy, but I envied her the freedom.

Which was a bit odd, because at various points of my life, I have derived a lot of my personal identity from my job and occupation. Equally, I generally have liked my job over the last ten years, and I would say considerably more positive than negative over the last 25. Was I really looking that forward to retirement? I hadn’t necessarily thought so, not in any “keen” sense, particularly as when I retire, Andrea will still have some years to go.

Finally, I took a retirement course that’s offered through work and it covered a range of topics. And I found myself getting REALLY excited about the idea of retirement and the things I plan on doing. Not surprisingly, a lot of things are ones that I want to do NOW but just never quite seem to have the time between work, errands, playing chauffeur, being too mentally tired at the end of the day, etc. And very few of them look much like going into an office to work.

And as I got excited, I started thinking more about a generic phrase that was running through my head…am I making ALL the investments that I need to NOW in order to retire the way I want? Health-wise? Education and learning? And even more simply, what does retirement look like to me and for me? A rare opportunity to think of your future in relatively selfish terms. Sure, some of it will be shared with Andrea and Jacob, but not 24/7 obviously. Writing is likely to figure prominently. Astronomy and photography I hope. A decent routine to my week that is a bit more relaxed than 9-to-5. No commuting, god I want to stop that now. Cooking. There are bigger items too like travel here, there and everywhere, but for day to day living in Ottawa, the freedom is inspiring.

Suddenly, the topic became list-worthy, indeed.

So I’m going to blog about some of the aspects of retirement and what it might look like, the issues that I think people aren’t talking about in the right terms (like in the course I took), questions that I’m wrestling with, etc. First up on the list? What I gleaned from the retirement course.

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#50by50ish #39 – Go to a comedy club

The PolyBlog
November 23 2018

I used to love standup comedy. Back when I was in high school and we had the network cable, A&E used to have Just for Laughs highlights on and they were awesome. They even produced their own specials and hosted half- or full-hours of comedy standup. I loved Last Comic Standing in the first couple of seasons, and I even did a bit of performing back in the day when I was at university. Nothing terribly substantial, just enough to get a taste.

When I left my previous job, my team got me two going away gifts, with one being a LEGO kit to put together with Jacob and the other being a gift certificate for Absolute Comedy. Through a series of delays and exchanges, I finally got to go last night with my wife, and it was pretty good.

The setup was a bit odd. First, the night was a fund-raiser for a group building schools in Nicaragua, although not everyone there was for the fund-raiser. Second, they normally advertise that they have two or three comedians “with” an MC, a feature act and a headliner. Now, when I read that, I thought it meant 2-3 lesser names PLUS the MC PLUS the feature act PLUS the headliner. Nope, it was 3 in total last night, which mainly means they have much longer sets. That is REALLY risky in my view for an outing because if you get a comic that doesn’t suit your comic needs, you could be sitting through a really awkward half-hour of comedy while they do their set. Last night was fine for me, not sure how everyone responded though in the audience.

First up was the MC, Aba Atlas. He’s from Ethiopia, and if you search the internet, you’ll see pretty quick that one of the things he’s most known for is a video (https://www.huffingtonpost.ca/2013/05/03/aba-atlas-mortgage-video_n_3211415.html) of him giving a cheque to his mother to pay down her mortgage. It went near viral on YouTube as one of those feel-good videos, and I vaguely remember the story. He was the opening MC, and while he didn’t have a detailed act, he played off the audience for 8-10 minutes and seemed pretty comfortable doing it, clearly enjoying it. His best bit was about winter and handling it as a non-Ottawa-born, non-white guy.

The feature act was Nick Reynoldson who hails from Scarborough. A good portion of his act is about his physical appearance. He looks really young for his actual age, emphasizes an emaciated look by wearing a hoodie and messing his hairstyle, and plays off a weaker appearance. He was really good, and he had a few threads through the act including one about fighting (i.e. his “move” is that he runs away really fast and knows how to zig zag like a rabbit; later when he talks about having to defend his girlfriend, he says that she doesn’t seem clear that the strategy is to find an open field and start zig zagging). He was the feature act this past week, but I noted that he  sometimes is the headline act and I actually liked him a bit better than the headliner. 

The headliner was Frank Spadone and I found him a bit disorganized. He does some sort of Italian accent throughout the show, maybe Italy by way of the Sopranos, and he was frequently deliberately stumbling through some of the words. Starting, restarting, etc. He apparently is known for doing accents and impressions, but it wasn’t obvious last night. He also had just finished a set downstairs and it seemed like he was somewhat lost, even stopping at one point to ask, “Did I tell you about this already?” because he had covered it downstairs. Good, but not headliner-awesome. He also did some interactions with the audience, and he did a deep dive with one woman in her 60s about growing up in Italy. It was interesting, mildly amusing, but it wasn’t sufficiently humorous enough to keep going. Yet he did.

Overall, it was a good night, and I did enjoy them. But I think I’d rather seen Nick or Aba doing a headliner set than see Frank Spadone again.

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